To My Savannah

Dear Savannah,

The warmth of the sun in winter.

I love you. Right now, you are laying on the living room couch next to your mom on your back with your feet sticking straight up in the air. You’ve discovered your feet and you like to try and pull your puppies (toes) into your mouth. (You just tooted next to your moms face and it was really funny) I’m smiling now, and I was just thinking that you can always me smile no matter how I am feeling. You’ve started making noises randomly and your mom and I think that you want to be part of the conversation. It’s so cute and so funny. It’s Sunday and we are having a lounge day. We need to run a bunch of errands today, hopefully we will get at least half of them done, but. It’s easy to spend our time with you instead.

We currently live in a world where everyone is supposed to self-quarantine and keep their distance from other people. It’s unreal. Your mom and I have chosen to try and look on the bright side. For our little family, we’ve been able to spend a lot of time together and that has been amazing. You do know us so well and you get excited to see us every day. You are our first child so we are new at this parenting thing, but all this time has helped us learn what you need probably a little quicker than we ever would have. We have been blessed that all three of us have remained healthy so we aren’t living in a sick home and we can make some memories together as a family.

This quarantine has been very hard at times. I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around a virus that has impacted the entire world. Someday when you are much older, I’ll tell you all about it and I hope that this is the only time this has ever happened and that you have a hard time understanding how this was ever possible too. I hate to think this may become a regular thing that you experience. Social distancing isn’t that bad, and we’ve learned how to get the essentials. The hard part about all of this is that we have not been able to bring your around our friends and family very much. I’m so grateful that you were born in January and this really didn’t start until the middle of march.

You’ve started doing this new thing where you scrunch up your face and smash your lips together and make a snorting noise. I’m not sure if that is a great description. You are breathing in and out really quickly and it sounds like a little snort that you just keep doing over and over again. I have decided this means you are frustrated. You’ve graduated from being able to cry and make squeaking noises to expressing a new emotion. It’s been the best part of my life to witness you growing and the changes you grow through. You are literally learning everything, and I’ve been here every day to witness. I’ve never seen anything like this before. This is probably something only a parent can understand. You are constantly looking around, following noises, paying attention to the things your mom and I are doing. We’d better make sure we are always a good example for you.

Well, it’s still too early to tell if things are about to go back to normal. The U.S. is starting to ‘open’ back up. I think society overall is starting to lighten up and starting to find ways to visit their friends and family and simply trying to stand six feet apart. People are over the virus, I think. Business owners are ready to open their stores. People actually do want to get back to some sense of normalcy. We may be trying to open too early and this may cause this all to last even longer. There is really no way for us to know what’s going to happen. I know I’m ready for this all to be behind us. We will be okay. We will stick together.

Love, your papa

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